I don't know about my mind anymore. I don't care at all. I've isolated myself from the outside for so long now. Humans disgust me. Their nature haunts me. I know I'm special. I can feel it. I have power to see through others. I always have. I'm not open to mortals. I have a small chosing. To sleep eternally will be bliss. I'm on my last life. I've lived enough. My family dissproves of me. Not good enough. Blessed fall. I will end up. I found my happieness..but why does it not stay? I love him and want to be with him. But inside..I rot. Just rot. He lingures in my mind. I want him erased. Deminished from the site of nature. Burned into death. I'm just not content anymore. I am a medium..and the voices tell me to come join them. My intuition is telling me to as well. Shall I listen. I just give up.